"I don't remember how it happened. My memory has always been really bad. You would think I'd remember something so important but I don't remember at all. All I remember is you died and I lived on. And kept living on."
Wei Ying cuddles closer to him. He doesn't like thinking or talking about what life had been like after Lan Zhan had died but he's willing to try for his lover's sake. So he'll know what he's getting into with him.
"...It was a dark, lonely time. The light, it was like there was nothing left. I couldn't go on without you but I had to. I thought that if I did that I might see you again someday."
His voice shakes with remembered grief as he speaks and here he has to stop, just burying his face against Lan Zhan's chest.
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on 2020-02-14 02:06 pm (UTC)Wei Ying cuddles closer to him. He doesn't like thinking or talking about what life had been like after Lan Zhan had died but he's willing to try for his lover's sake. So he'll know what he's getting into with him.
"...It was a dark, lonely time. The light, it was like there was nothing left. I couldn't go on without you but I had to. I thought that if I did that I might see you again someday."
His voice shakes with remembered grief as he speaks and here he has to stop, just burying his face against Lan Zhan's chest.